How can you still love someone so much,
that you can actually still feel their loving touch?
Even though they are not physically there,
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A day didn't go by that you weren't on my mind,
searching for the right words, happy, cheerful, and kind,
what started on fast-forward has turned around on rewind,
now I get it because I am no longer blind.
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What I thought was a new love nearing a end,
this was just 'his way' of mastering me as his friend,
I don't mind, yet it is a very peculiar trend.
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I WOTE THIS ON 10-16-93 (EDITED)
Sure money can buy a car, a house, or even an expensive blouse,
can money buy true happiness?
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How does everything seem so right, go so wrong,
why does something seem so short, take so long.
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I now see I won't be getting what I want or what I need,
it doesn't matter how much I could plead,
again my heart continues to beat,
carring out a senseless greed to bleed.
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My mind and soul states that using is abusing,
I am now feeling that you have been
using and abusing my friendship
though the sad part is my loving heart is now losing.
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It's amazing how this up and coming love
makes my heart feel,
closing my eyes, I can see your disputed sex appeal,
I didn't have to work hard to impress,
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I just wrote this off of the top of my head.
It has to do with all of us having to 'wear' a certain
face when we really don't want to express what we are feeling.
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My life seems to be in turmoil, to say somewhat a mess,
though my patiently yearning soul
is in total utter distress,
not being able to love you the way I want and need to
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