I am living in the darkness
I feel so scared
I feel unsafe
I dont know what to do
...
When I look back at my life
I could see a lot of pain
A lot of dim colors
A lot of tears
...
i was born in 1987 in thailand. i was living with my mom and 2 stepsisters. my dad(who is arabic) used to live with us but then problems happened and my parents got divorced, and he moved away to united arab emirates, i was only 2 years old at that time. then he married my step mother, and when i was abt 9 years old he came back for me and took me (away from my mom and sisters) with him to his second 'arabic' family. imagine a 9 yr old girl, who used to live in a shanty town, who used to share a tiolet with a whole neighboorhood, who has lice in her hair and only knows how to speak thai. imagine her in a new house, with a new family, a totally confused girl, who doesn't know how to comunicate with anyone...trying so hard to fit in, and out of a sudden, becoming an older sister for 2 brothers and a sister.they even changed my name(it was Natia) .it was like forcing me to throw my old life totally behind my back...it was never easy for me...now after 11 yrs, i look back at those memories...and i feel like the worst has already happened, and it gives me a positive veiw of life that somthing better will happen. coz life takes somthing and gives somthing in return. it gives me a motive to make my life ful of joy to make up for all the misery that i've been through in my childhood...)
Lonely In The Dark
I am living in the darkness
I feel so scared
I feel unsafe
I dont know what to do
I cry everyday and night
And I feel that I want to cry more and more
Non stop
It really dark here
I hear my mom voice
But I cant reach her
And I hear my friends calling me
But they cant hear me
I dont know what to do
I start screaming and screaming
But suddenly their voices r gone
They leave me all alone in the darkness
I start crying again and again
And suddenly
A light so weak appears, shivering in the dark
I didnt know what it was
I feel so endangered
I saw an extended hand
That wants to grab me towards its unrevealed body
I ran away
I hear a male vioce
Calling my name
Telling me that he wants to save me
I turn and look at him
I thought he was just like an angel
Just like an angel in a human body
With flesh and blood
He took my hand
To show me the way
When I was out of the dark
He gave me a butterfly
He gave me a butterfly
And with it
He filled my heart with hope
Gave me a reason to never give up
Just knowing that some one,
Somewhere
Actually cared about me,
Loved me
That will give me all the strength i need to live
To survive
Wow Natia I didnt know all this. You are an amazing person and I m glad we are friends Lots of love Roger