SARAH A. STRUSZCZYK Poems

I have this friend who's just like me
but I dont call or talk to him as much as I should
but he's been there for me countlessly
and I tried to be there for him when I could.
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You're far away but close in heart
a memory that will always be
i try not to let myself fall apart
not accepting reality
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I don’t know what to say
Or think about this anymore
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My thoughts turn back to yesterday
the day plays over and over inside my head
acting as if I'm okay
when really my emotions are dead.
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A memory is all you are to me
or should i say regret
you live in my dreams almost constantly
re-living dreams i cannot forget
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Words could never express
Tears could not explain
I know I’ve made one big mess
And caused you nothing but heartache and pain
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The smell of it just made me cringe
knowing it once again got the best of you
you felt alone out on your binge
but alone was the last thing you were; in my view
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I remember the days I felt lost
the days I felt my life was one big mess
the way I felt love had a high cost
and caused just too much stress
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hesitation when i close my eyes
celebration when i see a sunrise
devastation when i hear the lies
concentration just to say my goodbyes
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Confusion running through my mind; cant describe the way I feel
Trying not to lose what I find, I hold on to what used to be real
Don’t know whom to trust anymore, who says the truth and the lies
Can’t even trust myself no more, especially with guys
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