The Poet Darkling Poems

I fight suicide daily
Try to keep the funk at bay
Try to find some good in life
Try to push bad thoughts away
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Tried painting with words to relieve despair
But the canvas grew darker, stroke by stroke
My loneliness leaves me fighting for air
I fall into shadow, crumpled and broke
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Hard to wait when you don't know what you're waiting for
Hard to hang on when there's nothing to hold
Hard to see when all around you is darkness
Hard to hear what you've never been told
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I go day-tripping through the recent past
Feasting randomly on grand illusion
Attempting to create the perfect dream
From bits of lunacy and confusion
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I'm hiding here, in the dark
I watch as you come in
Kick your shoes off by the door
And pour yourself a gin
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My heart looks outwardly normal
But inside it's an empty shell
It holds no love or happiness
Only a hurt that burns like hell
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Scaredyflies abound
Flutter all around
Bring with them the dark
Making life so stark
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Blade against skin, I hesitate
Do I do it, or should I wait?
I'm all alone here in my shell
Need to free myself from this hell
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I'm needing so much
But getting so little
My mind's in prison
No chance of acquittal
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The restlessness begins
It's stirring in my soul
Old demons show their heads
They're consuming me whole
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