Trembling verbal incarnation
I am a contradiction
Of systems, of values, of attitudes,
Of statements, of words, of meanings.
...
In deepest, darkest fear I ran to hide.
Fast did my feet and my heart in rhythm pound,
Breaking a dead silence the only sound,
‘Til in dread despair to you, Lord, I cried.
...
(These are the lyrics to a song I wrote...)
When I'm running away and scared
And all, it seems, is hopeless
...
Nothing's obvious anymore.
Always, 'It's complicated'.
Remember the days when
Life was so clear?
...
Still, quiet my soul rests
As I feel the comforting touch of
The colorful breeze.
For only half the feel of light is warmth;
...
My grip is weakened by long months,
A long winter of holding on.
You looked into eyes that could not keep meeting your gaze,
Told me to let go of those empty promises.
...
Face the wind
Feel the pressure
It blows me away
It rushes past to God knows where
...
Open.
Wide, far, so high
And deep - I know it is.
Filled with Free,
...
Don't tear me away!
We all tore away
And now I don't know what to do
How to act or
...
Lord, capture my heart and transform it
to be like that of your Son.
Make me holy, whatever the cost.
Break me and heal me, Father of all comfort.
...
Father God,
The darkness is engulfing me!
The darkness is crashing over me like a great wave.
The Spirit cries out within me,
...
I grew up in a family of 8, in Savannah, Georgia, USA. I began writing poetry around the age of 13. My last two years of highschool I lived in Costa Rica and Chile. I am now a senior in college, studying Art with a concentration in oil painting. I am also a singer/songwriter/musician.)
I Am A Contradiction
Trembling verbal incarnation
I am a contradiction
Of systems, of values, of attitudes,
Of statements, of words, of meanings.
I am not un-created.
No, I am a sculpture
Sculpted by me:
I decide who I want to be,
And inDEcision
Destroys me.
I am a construction
Or maybe I am just
My own experiment.
I want to be a warm,
Tangible, real being -
Not a cold distant mind of
Dark matter in a dying skin.