Ali Joanne Poems

Why is it my memories haunt me
When i had kept then so hidden before
I thought i had managed to keep them away
And bolt them behind a closed door
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Where can you run to
When no-one else is around
When everyone else is sleeping
And there isnt one single sound
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Theres this place inside my head
Where everythings kept in tight
Even when i want to open it
My mind keeps it in with fright
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I love having you as a friend
You make my life loads brighter
Even on a miserable day
You make my problems seem lighter
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It still boils around inside
No matter what the day
Its still attacking my life
And i cant make it go away
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We may not share a surname
Or have to same set of genes
But still you stood by my side
Through, good, bad and the in-between
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Do you ever wonder what it would be like
To take that knife and end it. Dead.
Does the thought even cross your mind
Because it goes round and round in my head
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A mask to hide emotion
A shade of grey and blue
Built to last, built to hide
Everything that is true
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Do you see the panic racing through my mind
Do you see the shaking I try to hide
Do you see the sweat sliding down my back
Do you see the tears I have cried
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Like a shadow it follows
A separate part of me
I close my eyes to hide it
It's something I don't want to see
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