Alissa Greene

april 2009

Id be anything to be everything for myself
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I cant keep giving out my all
I cant hold your hand for eternity
For in the end they’ll be nothing left to hold
So you see eternity is a far grasp
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You weren’t supposed to leave that way
So smart
So caring
So uniquely you
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my grandmother....wait i dont know y im getting proper now cuz i called her nana.....my nana had a thing for candy and perfume and lotion....and she was old school so chanel no.5 and simular smells were a given...used 2 play dress up in her closet..which was a scene to see...(like imagine a four year old in clothes of a women who is about 5'7 and wears a size 9 shoe) but the smells were killer...5 different perfumes...and all she'd do is smile and say dont you look nice.

I was constantly trying to be like her. I started off with the candy. She used to eat peppermint &butterscotch hard candies (u know, the ones all old ppl eat) So i used to eat them too.. Nevermind that i hated butterscotch...and nevermind that as a little kid i hated hard candy. If nana did it, i wanted to do it to.
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written October 17,2008

i want him because he is him....the way he is and nothin short of it is what i adore......until he makes me mad.....then i push away...pretend not 2 care...until i hear his name....those syllables that send me 2 cloud 12 cuz cloud 9 can handle this feeling
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looking back i could always depend on my friends...kept 'em few so that was never a problem....i mean we were so close not even my problems were problems.......

see we built this thing, this... sisterhood; only it's closer than that cuz we picked one another...knit this bond so tight that we believed not people, not time, not places, not things, (& in our frail minds) not even god in heaven could break ..this sisterhood that we built, this bond we created, that some refer to as friendship...only it ran deeper...deeper than the longest river on the largest continent on this planet earth
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