Depression destroyed my life.
It told me I was no good.
It told me I was all bad.
It told me I was not loved.
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Maybe I can stab myself?
No, hurts to much.
Maybe I can shoot myself?
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Physical pain.
The pain of a bullet piercing you twice.
The pain of a knife through your heart.
The pain of water filling your lungs.
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I don't know what to write.
I don't know what to say.
The only thing I think is death.
What is death?
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I've tried to convince people I want to die.
No one takes time to listen.
They all start screaming at me.
The only ones I can count one are friends.
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You sat on my lap.
You brushed away all of my tears.
You play house with me.
You purred in my ear.
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Last night was the worst night.
I had a terrible headache.
I couldn't fall asleep because I was hurting.
I wish I could have died right then to get rid of the pain.
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Yesterday was a shock.
I learned my classmates
judged my character,
when they didn’t know me.
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