My Nathan, my son, my fallen angel, my child
His life on earth was too short, however, sometimes too wild
Tonight, he died in a car accident, instantly...
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As i sit amongst the people of the world, my thoughts and dreams softly 'uncurled'
No one bothers to find out about the real me, that sits alone for ALL to see
Go deeper than the superficial layer, i am wholesome, truly, more than a player
Envelope my fear, worry, care, needing to be bigger, to have.. to share
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16th Of December 2006
My Nathan, my son, my fallen angel, my child
His life on earth was too short, however, sometimes too wild
Tonight, he died in a car accident, instantly...
His bright light on earth terminated, cruelly taken from me
So loved, so cared for, so treasured, so young
I wonder if the damaged part of my heart could ever be restrung
This pain and emptiness is aching my whole being
I pray that when I close my eyes at night, its his beautiful face, I am seeing
My tears flow quietly, out of the corners of my eyes
Watching all who loved Nathan, saddened, shocked at his demise
His talent, his kindness, he thoughtful and caring ways
I will try to hold in my memory bank, when the sadness fills my days
Honoured and blessed to have been chosen to be his mother
On loan to us for a short twenty years, leaving behind a younger brother
No words can really make this ugly nightmare disappear
In time, the bigger picture of this test I've been given will become clear
You never truly, deeply, honestly imagine that it will ever happen to you
Keep your loved ones close, kiss & hug them, tell them you love them true...
I love ANGEL it reminds me of summer days outside lunches in Lambs Conduit st, Holborn. Londons so full of people yet its the lonliest place in the world x