I didn't try to run Lord,
I didn't want to hide.
I didn't realize I hoard,
I didn't know I lied.
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White above, and here below.
I am blinded by the glow.
Mind blank, and chest cold,
I feel heavier than gold.
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Angelic voices echo in the cathedral of my mind,
Long has it remained empty with no life to find.
I sit alone on a throne of the darkest stones,
Feeling so sick and weak down to my bones,
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With eyes glacial blue,
And smile snow white,
Your laughter is warm
Like sunlight.
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Dear one whose strength I admire,
I must admit closeness with you I desire.
I hear rumors of mistakes you have made,
And they do cause my heart to fade.
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O Lord I cried out, and You answered.
You gave me the things I desired.
I grew weak and You empowered me,
You opened my eyes to see.
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As I lower this casket into the ground,
I painfully aware of the lack of people around.
No friends or lovers left to say good bye,
They're just happy to let the old man die.
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They said I was too soft,
That my dreams were too aloft.
They don't know the monster that I hide,
That is clawing and fighting deep inside.
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Hear the wind howling through broken homes,
Watch it carry the pages of ancient tomes.
Through the streets and empty roads,
Feeling only heavy loads.
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Blessed is He who thwarts my power,
Leaving me weak because of my strength.
He does not let the enemy devour,
Me though I suffer at a length.
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