non stop fears comeing out as my painfull tears
all the hateing over all the long cold hearted years
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tired eyes that can no longer cry seen so much hate in the world i want to die
living in fear screaming bluring words so unclear from the demons that don`t lie
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I wish that some day i will hold you again the way that i did before
I wish someday that you will come knocking knock knock on my door
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The world as i knew it is crashing as i sit in the rain it splashes around me
The feeling of sadness being alone and hurt as left me this way torn and ashamed
From the day that i was born to now i still wish i would die some way some how
Every time i look at myself in the mirror i think how much i hate myself right now
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this unbearable weight is heavy on my mind
seeing this worlds violence got me so blind
trying to be good and not fall to far behind
trying to hang on to what i believe and unwind
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The sun rising up the darkness depleting
The children in bed eyes closed and sleeping
Dreaming of fun good times and happy things
I wake up scared from the demons in my dreams
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ever since you left i have nothing else to gain
i`m just living on and on but feeling ashamed
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Sometimes I wake up and I ask myself is life worth living should I blast myself?
Knife to throat slash myself because I don’t want to be caught In this hate from wealth
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Please stop hurting me i don't want to fight
For what i have been as to end tonight
Sometimes i sit at home and lock my self away
I don't want to be in that zone of no love everyday
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The last kiss you gave me was the last kiss that saved me
I was down and depressed but you came along you raised me
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