Ayoitunu Gbadebo

So many times I'd cry myself to sleep
Haunted by these bad days I wish I could skip

I wish the rain could wash away my pain
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Here I am once again
With no one to numb on my pain
Fell in love with nothing to gain
Nothing but a lot of shame
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I tasted all that is sweet
But found nothing sweeter than your lips

I tasted all that is bitter
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I wear a smile
A smile that's fake
Worn to cover the sadness written on my face
That way the world won't see I'm in pain
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I'm drowning in my dreadful desires
They consume me like a roaring fire

I'm a prisoner to my addictions
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Constantly in a world of depression
And life doesn't seem to be doing well
It's a different kind of oppression
To feel trapped with no help
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I feel like writing every time
Even if the words don't rhyme
I pour out worries from my heart
That way I won't be sad
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How true is it?
The saying that love don't cost a dime
For I'm stuck here wishing I could go back in time
Back to when loving you wasn't a crime
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I call on you Lord, save me please
All I want is joy, all I want is peace
Your words and miracles are all I believe
I've tried oh Lord, grant me my relief
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How long is the river
How deep is the sea
Just as they could flow forever
Would you do the same with me
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I've been losing sleep each and every night
Tossing and rolling round my bed
This feeling don't feel right
And memories us keeps playing in my head
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I'll never fall for the Lord defends me
My enemies tumble for going against me
I turn to my savior whenever I feel empty
For only him could help and save me
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I'm drowning in darkness
So far away from the light
It's like I'm in a battle but I'm losing the fight
Feels like my soul is trapped in a cage
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I tried to deal with my obsession
Yet you made it stronger
Your love took away my depression
And made me feel way better
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I am black
But my heart is pure
Judge me not by my skin color
Don't treat me like an outcast
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Depression he lived in, like his soul was imprisoned
All he wanted was a reason to be happy
A reason that doesn't go away with season
But regret filled his heart like a prisoner guilty of treason
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I sat outside in the time of the night
I smiled at the stars
And they smiled back at me
But then, I woke up for it was nothing but
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Staring at the billions of stars
Twinkling and shining through the night
They seem so close yet so far
But at least still under my sight
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We came into the world with our eyes filled with tears
Into a place where no one really cares
We grow up struggling to get through the years
With burden and pains that we can hardly bare
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In the morning time
I sit to watch the golden glow of the rising morning sun
I admire the peaceful aura of the slow breaking of dawn
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