I try to withstand the pressures
Bearing down
Fighting back the hate within
Festering
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I have tried to forget
A night unrelenting
A memory that won’t fade
Laughter
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don’t look at me with that hate.
you knew from the beginning
that these wounds were self made.
who made you think you could save me?
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Somewhere between
Purgatory and hell
I float in existence
Scorched by flames
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What was done and what has been
Look no further than to me
And see what could be
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Walk around the everyday circus
Riding the merry-go-round
Blurring faces of the past
Confusing now and then
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Swallow your pride
Leaving a lump in your throat
Crack your knuckles
Ignoring the arthritic pain
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The warning order was read aloud
With soldiers listening intently
Though the information never changed
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Lean back in your office chair and listen to me
Waiting to hear my intimate thoughts
But it is then that I reverse the conversation
Letting you know that I am not transparent
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I stood faceless behind a podium
Glancing over the crowded room
Full of faces that encompass my past
Hating the event that brought us together
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