Christine Sears

broken and defeated
gasping for breath
body splayed out across the floor
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My door is shut.
That's when I cut,
To relieve my gut
When I'm stuck in a rut.
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Oh their blind eyes.
If only they could see the things
That are torturing me
Inside.
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I say I'm fine but I'm going insane.
I say I feel good but I'm in a lot of pain.
I say it's nothing but it's really a lot.
I say I'm fine but really I'm not.
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People feel the need to care
But I shrink from condescending eyes.
They just don't quite get it,
Don't see the hurt, the pain, the lies.
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Do you know what it's like
To wake up and pray to fall asleep again?
Just so I don't have to face the day,
I close my eyes and say 'Amen.'
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It's the story of a girl
So broken and so alone.
Her feelings are in a whirl
And her actions she can't condone.
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