Daleen McElmurry

You were suppose to be my mother but you left me all alone
i know that you lost my brother when he was only one month old
you got caught up in the moment and your selfish ways
you delt with the pain with out feeling any shame you stopped eating and just wasted away yeah mabey you were hurting but what about me i was only eleven why couldnt you see that i needed you even though you didnt need me i was left to be momma to my brother and sis what a life you left me with werent you so lucky to take the easy way out now i have my babies and i learned it all on my own
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so many questions so many things that went wrong were do i begin
what went wrong, Heavenly Father idont understand the pain ive bared in my life from as a little child i have always felt like i had to run and hide
somebody has always been there to hurt me and make me cry
I thought it would be better as an adult but at times the pain is un bearable mabey i was cursed from the strart, am i that vulnrable to people that they can cause me so much pain father why dose it get better then fall all apart i dont understand the twist and turns ups and downs will there ever be stability for me. what must i do father to be truly happy cause you know i love you and have faith in you. but how do you hold on when theres all that pain? I need ansewrs from you
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babe weve had are share of bad times yes theres no doubt
16 years of ups and down highs and lows
through your addiction we batteled on but some how i stayed strong
I knew deep down that you would move on past the trap of addiction and be a good man now you are a husband, brother and a dad
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