In memory of my sister, a nonsmoker who died young of lung
cancer, and to a friend who mentioned, after her father's
accident, 'I hate it, death. Everything's over, you just stop.
It's as if you never lived.'
...
"With enough chips, everything's going to be aware of us:
the door knobs, the stove, probably the chairs at the coffee shop..."
—A friend complaining in 2012 about excesses of the cyber age
...
"Settlements away from Earth: I'm not sure the human race
has the right to propagate itself that far. We might not
deserve to go on."
...
Something happened on a low,
rounded rock in a galaxy that tows
and pushes in the Local Group—-something
...
To myself, wondering whether it wouldn't be better to avoid
more sibling encounters—-just stop this sorry history, these
cross-purposes, this acrimony
...
The Afterlife
In memory of my sister, a nonsmoker who died young of lung
cancer, and to a friend who mentioned, after her father's
accident, 'I hate it, death. Everything's over, you just stop.
It's as if you never lived.'
I've signed revised documents
creating bequests, spoken with a development
officer for a bench and inscription at a school
in Pennsylvania, heard from a man who'll
build a nesting box, front-lettered 'Gayle, '
for bluebirds in his woods near Hale,
Indiana, and I've been made aware,
abruptly, of some family facts, all dark, all austere
but useful—new events that wouldn't be the case,
or intricately connect, if it were still the case
that my desperate, dear sister were alive. An insect,
lovely, its dorsal wings blue-shellacked,
can lower and lift those wings
once or twice on a stem at a turning
of the Orinoco, and within a week
hurricane winds can be about to peak
in the mid-Atlantic. What also happens
—maybe with equal accumulation and extent? —
to those receiving the award
you're funding in your father's name; to hard,
fast breezes across the hemispheres
from blue-winged birds, new every year;
or to young women
reading on a teak bench soon,
at a college, under beech-leaf drop,
when any small wings hesitate, then stop?
In SCIENCE AND, FutureCycle Press, copyright © 2014 Diane Furtney