Prediagnosis
Wide-eyed and young, they flirt with boys;
I worry about damnation.
Squeeze broken glass inside my palms,
And beg the Lord for mercy.
They hush me when I cry too loud-
Twenty milligrams, Lexapro.
I hide them underneath my tongue,
And beg the Lord for mercy.
She tells me “Pray to Jesus, child.”
But I wanted her to hold my hand,
And know the hell inside my head,
And beg with me for mercy.