Esther Hadassah Sendeza

Stop looking into my eyes,
You'll find nothing there.
Stop trying to let yourself in,
I have locked all my doors.
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You are your lifeline,
So take care of yourself.

Love yourself,
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Not from another's perception,
Not from what you think you must achieve,
Not from what they think you should be,
Not from the weight you carry on your back.
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I crave you,
I crave you in the most innocent form
To take long walks with you in the dawn
And watch the day break with your hand in mine
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Yesterday,
today and tommorow,
hold my hand through my happiness and sorrow.
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The heart so fragile but still lessons to be learnt,
when you search deep inside it you'll find the memories that were burnt.

The deceit,
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To live and to love in every other way,
to find the chance and the perfect words to say,
to hold you tight and next to you always lay,
every day and every night i humbly pray.
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She sits on her bed laughing,
the drugs in her system embarking,
the poison inside her searching,
another day gone shes now crying.
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I wish i knew this before,
but don't we all?
right before we fall
Is this pain going to end, i ask
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I sat in the quietness on one starry night,
Away from the noise and the city lights.
Eyes closed and lost in thoughts.
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I have fallen in love with myself,
In love with the entirety of everything that speaks me.
It has been one long way to get here,
But every step, every scar has got me here.
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For seeing the pain in others,
And feeling it so deeply.
For reading the eyes of suffering children
And feeling it so deeply.
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With all that you come with,
With all that makes you who you are.
All the baggage,
And all that you dont like about yourself.
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For the times you were being real,
And my fear told me otherwise.
For the time you were kind,
And my heart didnt dwell on it.
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This is a story of a lover,
Who adored her like no other.
Every step she took to him,
He embraced and held on firm.
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I now understand,
The power of spoken words.
For as time goes by,
Words lose their meaning.
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Do you see it when I cry?
Or when I am beyond excited?
When I am speechless or angry or sore?
Or when I want the earth to swallow me whole?
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I hate the power of doubt,
the pain and frowns it brings,
the hurt of living without,
the lack and sadness it brings.
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Trace my thoughts,
trace my pain,
all i did, all in vain.
I let you in because i thought you were different,
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Listen again,
this time really hard,
you will hear the snow falling slowly and lightly in the backyard.
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