I see him struggle-trying to get the words out
The pain the frustration unable to convey his thoughts
The angry outbursts-the depression -the anxiety
Ridiculed shunned always the outcast-the scapegoat
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I am angry, I am sad
Everything I have given up
What I wanted in life
Who I wanted to be
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Thoughts- questions
Feelings of desire
Churning- swirling
Drowning in a whirlpool of doubt
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I welcome him
I shan’t run from him
All in all he will come for me
Having lost my feeling for life
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While slumbering in your confined space
Do you think of your garden
How it was once beautiful
Lined with colorful flowers
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Drawing myself tightly within my shell
Locking out the world
Trapped with only my thoughts
The noise within is deafening
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Sitting staring out my window
All the happy faces
The smiles the greetings
The lights and decorations
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What is love…
Is it the fluttering in your stomach
The knot in your throat
The tightness in your chest
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Your silence is starting to make me wonder.
You no longer leave those cute little messages
I no longer receive the forbidden calls
You no longer break the rules just to hear my voice
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Mirrored droplets cascade down my face
Each one reflecting the pain I hold within
Staring into the tear made puddle
Memories of you swimming within
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