I sit listening as you mock me
I smile when it's needed
I laugh when it's appropriate
I please your every need when you need it
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When i see You walking down the hallway i know everything will be alright
When i fall i know You will be there to pick me up
When a tear escapes from my eyes i know You will wipe it away
When my heart breaks in two i know You will be there to pick up the pieces
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Broken-inside; In a million pieces
Crying out rivers
Cutting away the pain
To hurt to care anymore
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My pain i hide it
my death, i wish it
because of you i no longer wish to live
i think everyday of how i can make it end
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I write the poems I write because I went through pain and suffering. I get made fun of for the ways I chose to deal with my pain. I'm told by mother I can't be myself till i move out and it hurts me to hear that. I constantly wonder 'Why me? Why did I have to go through this pain? ' I still haven't got my answers to the questions I ask. I want to dye my hair black with purple streaks and red tips. I'm gonna get snake bites and MAYBE a tongue piercing. I wonder everyday if my friends really like me and if anyone would care if I just disappeared. I listen to Black Veil Brides, Blood On The Dance Floor, Metallica, Asking Alexandria, Bullet for My Valentine, Lincoln Park, Green Day,3 Days' Grace,5 Finger Death Punch, Papa Roach, etc.)
Inside
I sit listening as you mock me
I smile when it's needed
I laugh when it's appropriate
I please your every need when you need it
I cry when no-one is looking
I sit dead and cold inside
I feel the little pieces of my heart breaking off into my soul
I run and hide when you say I'm weak
Only for you to follow and say if I'm cutting it proves how weak I am
The next day is when I appear
Tear streaks on my face... Eyes puffy and red
I wish you knew, wish you understand
What I'm feeling deep inside....