I feel the beat
Die away
Beating faintly
Full of shame
...
The hurt is here
It never ends
Its always been here
My only friend
...
I will sew my lips so I cannot speak
I will sew my eyes so I cannot see
I will sew my throat so I cannot breathe
I will sew my brain so I cannot think
...
Hydro's, zanax
Cymbalta, prozac
These pills I eat
...
Pale and cold
Dead and white
My eyes blank
Stricken with fright
...
the pain within me
never ends
never takes a break
never goes away
...
ther is nothing left
but cold and hate
a blackend heart
a miserable fate
...
internal maggots
eating my heart
I gouge at myself
to get them out
...
feilds of black
I see in my mind
decaying trees
dark-lit skies
...