Haven't you noticed?
Lately whenever we're together
you don't see me crying
funny cause that was all
...
It's Christmas eve
and I'm seated on this same old chair
in front of this same old tube
I'm a pathetic little twig
...
of all the things i hate the most...
being expected of things
i never said i could deliver
did i promise you anything...?
...
too swift
i wasn't thinking
too deep
i never realized
...
a recluse from a demented life
a safe place where i can run and hide
all my troubles may never find me
This weariness washed away by the sea
...
my love for you was priceless
yet you took it as if you were mindless
in the beginning it was you who needed me
and I, seeing the need in your eyes
...
There's a beautiful moon
out there tonight
and I am mesmerized
making me wish to die
...
Dear Dad...
I wonder how it would be..
If you were still alive...
Must be more painful for me...
...
tis been two christmases
you never failed to bring
tears not of joy nor peace
but of misery and gloom
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i can feel the tiny flicker of light burning out of me
succumbing to the heaviness of my heart and the weakening of my whole being
the tears that won't dry up lest they be like sands in the desert
and you my beloved has gone so far away from me..
...