Midnight W

Pressure building in my head, moving down to my heart and stomach as I crash onto my bed.
I'm panicking feeling like I'm almost dead. The doctors tell me it's in my head and because I haven't gotten fed.

What's going on with me. I let all the pressures get to me. The anxieties all creep up on me.
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Little mice running all around looking for a bite to eat.
Claw each other, hiss angrily, beg with squeaks, and listen to your small fading heartbeat.
Blind, blind, silly little mice. Smell the food, it's plentiful in the distance, within the real world.
However, you stayed put as the mouse trap was built, all around you.
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I wish I had it in me to give you everything you need.
But the last girl sucked it all out, and now I'm risking making your heart bleed.

It seems like this evil deed keeps going round and round in circles, leveling everyone in the way.
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Your body lays in the coffin stiff as a board. I only knew you for a glimmer of time.
I heard you passed away the other day, my heart sank, like the day you left me.
Before you were gone from my life, now you are gone from this world.
I sit here and wonder where your spirit is floating now. I hope it will be pleasant and in a place I would recognize. A place where I could maybe wander and find you someday.
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I see everything clearly now. My tainted soul, saved only by grace has allowed me to see through the fog of lies. Men have conspired and won, or so it would seem. There is a terrible storm brewing overhead and will sweep many lives away. We had a select few giving warning to change our course before it becomes too late, but the masses didn't hear. Blind, deaf, and dumb like zombies walking over a thousand foot cliff, falling…falling…falling to a brutal death.
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Everyone has a story, even the homeless man on the street, but do we care? How did your life begin, and what were your dreams?

Maybe you'd have a beach home, with a boat floating next to the dock.
Your life would be good in the sun, but now that dream is smashed on the ocean rocks.
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Watch all that you've saved rise to the top as they burn it all into the air.
Glowing red eyes as master looks down on you demanding more.
Sacrifice your children's future give them up as debt slaves.
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Check me out as I’m dangling from the string of life.
I’m still young and of course I’ve got it all figured out.
We all want a lover, but we don’t want the wife.
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Memories engrained in the Walls:

You were my first love, and my only love, the love I wanted to make last with you forever. I gave you my soul and everything within it. I held nothing back from you.
The joy we shared for so short of a time, why did you take it all away from me?
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Can you smell the smoke? Do you even see the signs? The burning flames? No, you only look away and pretend it will go away. This world we live in is burning up, burning through resources that were created for all, not just the rich, greedy few.

Are you feeling helpless? Are you afraid to move? Will you stand up and shout out for freedom...freedom from a government that demands efficiency, but is fatter then an un-milked cow. We are weak by ourselves, but if we come together, we can lean upon one another.
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All these images in my head drive me over the mental edge. How did you do this to me?
I opened up completely and let you in, loved you all the way, and then you pulled away.
Why did you do this to me? I could read your mind, and I felt your soul, but I never saw that demon hiding in the shadow. I walked into the trap with no guard up, and now I can’t get up from your heavy blow.
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This safe haven has now become my prison. I'm trapped in the destitute you left me in.
I've done everything possible in order to move on, yet it seems I become more connected to the memories of you. How is it I fell into a love so unbreakable that not even seven women could pull me away from you.

My soul is heavy, taking on water, watch me sink below. My hand outstretched for the light, but this sea of darkness is pulling me under. My lungs fill and my mind at last finds its peace. Now I'm living in a numbing bliss. Nothing and no one can reach me and neither can I. The first time in my life I've given up hope, so what then is left, my final destruction?
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I elevated you so high, and allowed myself to free fall.
I wouldn’t believe what I chose to become, as I hit life’s brick wall.
Do you remember looking into my eyes as we promised each other it all?
Feel nothing, as you watch me fall, and you stood there looking so tall.
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The whole world has been brought to its knees, and I still have these nervous shakes.
Don’t be fooled you push me too far and I will kill you, no matter what it takes.

Leave me alone, then pull me closer then ever before because I’m insane.
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We smile because we are told. They say it makes us attractive, stand out and even bold.
Read all those books learning how, when the authors don't even believe the things being told.

How does society function from this facade, vain things, and empty words?
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