Rejected Suicide

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when i'm sad, i act glad
nobody knows what i know
nobody knows what i feel
nobody cares how i deal
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today i cry myself to sleep
tomorrow i still just weep
next week, my spiral still goes down
feeling like a big clown
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As i close my eyes tight, i feel the warm liquid-
it runs down my arm. When i remove the blade
all my pain goes away, as if it is simply draning
with my warm sticky blood. When i open my clenched eyes
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do you ever feel your life is a joke?
everyting you say, she only stares.
her glares make you want to choke
her not trying to listen is almost to much to bare.
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