as I look out of the nighttime window
a window that looks down across the Chao Phraya River
I look
...
like a gray fog of wet emptiness
covering all realms of my vision
covering all realms of my thought
it is raining so hard, I can’t even see the road
...
the nighttime dangles its emptiness
refusing to caress the dawn
the passion it drains out of us
...
the wind is blowing
Tokyo's winter confronts me
confounds me
...
the red wine flows like blood
the blood that poured out of her veins
I was not there to see it
...
an empty bottle of wine
drink
myself to sleep
...