To a dear lil boy
Who could never ever hug a toy
For I long to hold you up close to my heart
For that day I feared when you'd part
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Standing still as my life goes by me
Cannot hold on much longer see...
So much going on stuck within a tornado
Standing within its EYE
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Up, up, up so high
Puffy white clouds in the sky
Look for a moment tell me what you see...
The winds changing their shapes, what could it be...
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Raped by the system is how I feel,
Raped repeatedly traumas and more ordeals.
It all started behind racial abuse at Huey School
Now raped by the system, No that aint cool.
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I really love you Matthew Jr.
I wish you were born a little sooner
Then and only then you'd be alive today
Who knows God may have taken you anyway!
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Sitting here going out of my mind
Why bother it's a waste of my time
Mothers subjected to everything
The children, cooking, and cleaning
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To escape the past, humm where to begin
Locked away in a closet is where it's been
I've lost my way and point in life
Hurt, pain, and confusion yet I take it in strife
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There are so many words
Yet there are no words
For when we looked into your eyes
No words needed to be spoken.
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It's July 22,2001, my little one
It feels like a lifetimes come + gone
I'm in the hospital this very day
The smells and the sounds it's as if it were yesterday
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