My face is a mask
covering my mind
stuck around my eyes
people glance and see
...
I don't feel like I do anything well,
and I don't like the feeling,
I'm crippled by the horrors of my true self,
the things that I do are easy,
...
If only I could love you the way I should,
then I would be the man I want to be.
The pain cuts deep into my chest;
castigation for my inabilities.
...
Pain too overbearing.
Love lost in the times.
I cry for seemingly no reason.
My world hurts so much.
...
There I was
On the subway to Hyehwa
Reading
Yoon-Kyung had given me Murakami the day before
...