I take your love with me, ......to my bed at night
I hold on to it closely, till the morning's early light
I put my make up on, and set your love on the sink
As I stir my coffee and begin to drink
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Emotionally held hostage, in chains I am tied
Blackmailed and soul beaten time after time
He slices me with words and makes it all my fault
Burns into my self esteem till I equal no worth
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Carry me away on a red velvet wave
Caress me softly until I begin to crave
Touching me, you send shivers up and down my spine
You stir my senses and make me lose track of time
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Days melt into night like a icicle into earth
A puddle of time just existing without worth
Once beautiful full of life did it once spark
Now a meaningless journey with nowhere to embark
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Drunken spell cast over me
To disguise the illusion that I am free
Imprisoned in my white wall cage
I am quietly defying this darken rage
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You enter my thoughts with a force of a gun
A vision of you has me competely undone
Tingling sensations that burn throughout
Starting a fire that blazes about
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Sickness festering inside my brain
I numb the feelings to ease the pain
What was lost supercedes what was to gain
In a memory's garden mixed with seeds of change
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Tell me now that you will open your eyes
Because I need you to look through mine
To see a dream of love that no longer exists
I need you to feel it, breathe it, to find a way to learn to need it
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As I lay here with a tear on my cheek
I ponder in my thoughts of guilt and deceit
In the absence of my strength I live in a weakened state
Lies and selfishness I become everything I hate
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Not as bright as the light once shown from within
The light in his eyes changes and flickers to dim
Words become less and his voice sounds distressed
There seems to be something he is fighting to confess
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