I'm sorry that I finally gave up,
But you see,
I hated life!
Nothing appealed any more
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The blood flows like never before,
But this time its not from my wrists,
Its different blood
Its from the part of me I have dedicated to you.
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My Ipod play's loudly,
I torture myself by listing to songs of love.
I tug at my hair,
But concentration is no longer a possibility.
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From nothing this powerful love became,
But when i watch you watch her I die.
When i look in your eyes i feel my pain,
So many tears for you each night i cry.
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Hope is forgotten,
And love is lost
Cheeks are sodden,
And feelings are sold at any cost.
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I sit in the car,
Waiting,
Hating,
Burning with coldness.
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She stands in a room,
A bright room,
Filled with bright girls,
Happy girls,
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How can one person have such a hold on me?
If i had the key i would gladly unlock the chains keeping me to him,
Never have i cried a happy tear for him,
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I am not change,
Nor am i fear.
I am not a sinnless soul,
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