I'm trying to find what I feel
It's hard with pains that never heal
...
I can't take this pain again
Lying on my bedroom floor
Wishing we had never met
Heartbroke many times before
...
In a smooth looking hotel, She stood by the door
Had a look on her face, that I'd seen once before
While her makeup was running, down her pale beaten cheeks
Here eyes were heavy and her face was white
...
Spilling More Of Me
I'm trying to find what I feel
It's hard with pains that never heal
I cared so long for someone else
that I don't remember how to care about myself
Things are too confusing now
I want to know but don't know how
to know exactly how I feel
I can't get past these pains that won't heal
I'm spilling more of me
I try so hard to see
This pain I feel inside
reflects most of my life
I wish I wouldn't have gotten involved
But the old me would have never dissolved
I wonder if that matters now
I try to feel but forget how
If I do something to get in touch
I reach the pains that are too much
to bare but if I don't persue
my feelings I can't explain to you
I'm spilling more of me
I try too hard to see
This pain I feel inside
Reflects most of my life
I'm spilling more of me
The one who wants to be
The one who wants to help
but cannot help himself