Ajmacia McQueen

My tears fall as my eyes looks at the pictures of you
My heart quivers everytime my mouth speakes your name
My fingers feel abandoned as they miss your skin
My skin feels cold as they miss your warm touch
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You were the remedy to my pain and sorrow
your words of wisdom made my painfull days a little easier.
You released your compassion for me with no hesitation caring about the littlest things about me.
The Impact of your love scared me as I never indured this type of care as this. I was helpless from your love.
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The city is quiet all I can hear is the wind walking past me softly
It's dark but the lights from the building that surrounds me shines as if was a christmas tree.
My thoughts seem to come to me as I walk through this quiet city
The leaves remind of the season as they fall so softly.
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I never gave you my love,
My heart wouldn't let me share something that is lost.

Loning for my commitment,
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The heartache you've caused brings nightmares to my life
Questions rummaging through my mind of why you can't see the pain you've impacted upon me.
You walk around blind from the truth of your mistakes
Immoral to the meaning of what your responsible for
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I feel ashamed as Im carrying the mistake I made so carelessly
How do I explain the burdon that haunts me so to the people that love me so?
Depths of my denial that this will go away is deeper than it seems
hoping it never happened but it did.
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Walking through this world alone
Dreaming of something or some one to call her own
filled with lost hope and dispair
feeling of this world not being fair
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Feilds filled with these beautiful flowers dancing with the wind
The sun shining on me as Im smiling within
I sit here only thinking about you
wishing there was more I would of knew
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A gentle soul is what you have
Thats what made me fall in love with you.
Compassionate person, Always thought with your heart.
Your a star that shine so bright, Even in the drakest hour.
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I look around and I see a city of struggle
Beautiful brown faces stifled from poverty,
Working hard to be rewarded little.
People trying to find ways to make it through,
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She was broken from the pain
Crying from the bruises
Scared of her own happiness, Terrified of how to get to it
She received kiss of affection, to verify his love
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I've been mad for so long from the mistakes you seem to not notice
Crying for you to see how your words can cut deeper than a knife
Your so blind, when you think you see everything is so clear
LOVE is not in your vocabulary & it's such a shame
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Promise my love will always be yours
My heart locked in a box, Waiting for your love to help it beat again
You hold all the cards, You hold the key
Waiting in this tower isolated from this world
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Mom
What are you thinking, What are you feeling?
Are you safe, Are you in danger?
Are you hiding, Or did someone steal you away?
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My pain is my drug
its my reason to cry, its my reason to be in the shadows of my shame
caught up in a world of misery and lies
The truth is on the inside but still I hear words of deception
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I listened as you wisphered sweet words in my ear making my body warm every time you was near
Touching my neck as you glanced at my eyes, Looking at me with red the color of love every time you wanted a peck of a kiss.
Day by day you make me feel as high as you wanted my soul to feel
L.O.V.E is what you tricked my heart to believe that we shared.
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The girl with a smile on her face
But worries wondering in her mind

The Girl with a joke ready for you to hear
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Time that we spend together are more tougher to bare more and more as the the days come. Our verbal actions are more crude as the topic becomes more hasty.
I feel that the love has an absence but I can't figure where to?
Thoughts swondering my brain as I pace back and fourth, Im trying to solve our problems as many ways as I can. Still no solution.
I hold back tears as I'm looking at the face that usually smiles as me so tenderly, but now looks at me with such coldness.
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