Ana Carlin

We sat watching the moon in the middle of the night.
Then i start to wonder thing's of life and what life is itself.
How? Why life is what it is
Then i see her and i realize she is someone that can make you move mountains.
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There was a time when love was all to me, something new i had never felt.
I had found the one person that made this world beautiful my best friend my companion.
This love that i had felt was something so real i could feel it in my heart, my bone's, my hand's, my soul.
I could remember the embrace how we held so close i had never felt so complit.
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And your charismatic smile enlighten's my joy of soul to spring a smile.
the adventures side of my being jump's at the chance to excite your beauty.
holding myself strong to relax and remember how precious you must be to the lucky being that eluminates your day's.
happiness i can only imagine you have for if i am not allow to give you, someone with the privilege i cannot have does with no dought in my mind.
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i am not allowed to speak the word's i hold so dear in my lips.
i cannot create a space that those words would bring if i said them out loud.
so i hold my chest ever so strong that not even the beat of my heart or the breath that remain's scared inside can come out.
yu allow me to have you so close that at moment's my nerve's body, my hand's can react so natrual and hold you close i could kiss you.
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Love lied so loud
It screamed in my head
Let me go! let me go!
I refuse! i say
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I myself forgot who i am just to feel what i can't be.
I look around and find a fake me.
am I looking for me?
I close my eyes and assure myself i am me again.
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This aching in my heart
Helpless and weak i lose myself deeply.
I pretend to understand myself
I just can't explain what i want.
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I got to know what it is of you i search.
Then i see you but i don't understand.
Why i can't stop?
I hear you but i can't understand your word's.
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Complex the structure you build.
All this time you created a barrier between the love i keep for you and the lie you wish to stay in.
Why wrong what your heart feel's?
Why not see that the wrong is on what you don't want to let go.
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As i sit here alone looking around me the mess, the smell it all reminds me of when i had a place to call my own.
I relax for a bit to enjoy the sound of the wind, the cat meowing for my attention.
I realize how my mother with all her hard work she has made me someone good.
I realize that what matter's the most is when you have the love of your family and together you stay strong.
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