Carla MacKay

I find sweet solace in the quiet calm
I breathe in deep and feel the cool damp on my lungs.
As tears sting my eyes I breathe in memories of you.
At the end of our dock looking over our lake I look in the water and see your reflection.
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Like ocean waves that never reach the shore, I have failed you.
I have failed in loving you. And I feel underserving.
I don't recognize these hands that fail to even write these words.
My lovely girl, love is but an illusion.
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Words slipped from my mouth and hung around like a cloud of smoke making my eyes water and my heart ache.

This is how fast it happens, this is how fast love can turn to hate.
It all falls down around me and I watch in silence, because words have no meaning now.
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In the evening sadness comes
unwanted and absolute
the ticking of the clock taunts me, like a school yard bully
when the world outside rests, I lay my head in turmoil.
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