Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer

I love the way he laughs
I love the way he’s kind
I love the way he smiles
I love the way he cares
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I'm a girl that everyone expects to be perfect
I'm the girl that gets yelled out and called names if did something 'imperfect'
I'm the girl who is suppose to help out everyone before I help myself
I'm the girl who is expected to be nice all the times, and not state anything that could hurt another's feelings, regardless if it's the truth
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It takes love
It takes a hug
To be a mother
And when Mother's Day come
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All my life I've wanted to fit in.
I wanted to be in the middle of the crowd feeling wanted.
I felt like this was who I was supposed to be.
But no.
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Bad dog dig
Dig dog dig
Bad dig bad
Bad dog dig
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You might think you have no one to love
You might feel that your alone in an unknown world
like your invisible
You might see that people around you
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Be Proud of yourself, always
Do not let anything or anyone put you down
Terrible things are always going to happen
but you just have to remember:
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Ode to sweets
that brings smiles
and give people cavities
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Crying morning, afternoon, nights
Crying inside out
Crying until my tears runs out
Crying for freedom signs
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Mistakes are meant to be learned.
Not just thrown aside and spurned.
Take the mistake and analyze it.
Realize what you've done wrong
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Nobody’s like you
You’re special in every way
You cheer me up, and calm me down
With lovingness and kindness
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I woke up, and the first thing that pops in my head is your name
I go to school, the only thing I think about is you,
I sit on the school bus talking to my friends,
And guess whose name runs through my head? Yours
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I’m sorry for the yelling
I’m sorry for the misunderstanding
I’m sorry for the sadness I brought you
I’m sorry for breaking your heart
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You held me in your stomach for nine months
Then you gave all your courage just to give birth to me
and there I lay on the hospital bed with you
thanking God that I was born
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So I have this (older) sister,
who, honestly, I really never loved that much
She gets my last nerves, and is soooo selfish.
But also she's so challenging and so smart
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I'm having second thoughts...
about you and me and the past.
From the day we met until this day.
It's quite impossible to believe that we were in love
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I've returned
Stronger and better
Mind's set on a goal
Head's set on a mission
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Maybe I'm the one who's taking this too deep
Maybe I'm the one who is being too picky

Maybe I'm the one who can't keep my mind straight
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Can you tell
the way that you're gleaming?
I can see it from a thousand miles away
Under the moonlight, you're like that one star
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I am breaking apart.
I can no longer hold on to strings.
I've done my time, now it's time to go back.
The ones that use to look to me for Happiness,
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