Crystal Midnight Poems

I know that we are
Lab rats... Ginny pigs
We are people who are being tested
Experimented with
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You just don't relies how greatly I do care
Or maybe you do
I want to tell you things I shouldn't feel or that's what they say
I can bight my tongue
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You'll always be in my heart,
From now to eternity.
My thoughts will be on you.
Ever since I left I felt empty,
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Gagged sharp rocks that cut though flesh
Like razor blades cut though butter
Make up the stair case I climb up alone
By myself I try and try to get though the next agonizing step
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Lord please help me
My boat is so small
Your sea so big
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I look into the mirror and
Seeing not only a reflection of myself,
This world or the world daring me to enter
But the person I use to be
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as a teen of 19 sits on her bed
trying yet again to not to believe
that her older lover wasn't drinking again
but the bruises and cuts that lay on her body
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Anxiety running through my vines
Like in the colors of a chock rainbow
Being washed off the side walk
A little scared but not enough to show it
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I am 55 and a little crazy,
If I stand up to fast things become a little hazy.

I need another line,
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as the icy cold chill seems to jump down my spine
then yet up again back to my cooling heart that barley beats
no matter how hard I breath it stops for yet another second
or was that one two I cant tell any more
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