Darkness Falls

I wish I had said…
Nothing at all
Everything that came out
Of my mouth was wrong
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My body tingles as I lay there still feeling your body wrapped around mine
I close my eyes and notice that there is nothing I can do but dream
For you have left me here with nothing but a memory
A memory of what we had what we were
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Broken

There is a saying that you can’t fix what’s not broken
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All around me the Darkness Falls
All around me my world turns upside down
All around me I see nothing but pain
All around me so many people come in and out of my life
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You were there for the calmest of times
You were there when I needed to cry
You were there when I least wanted
But when I needed you the most
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she turned my world upside down
she made that summer something to remember
there was nothing that could be said that would make me want to give it all up
maybe she was my worst mistake
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As i sit here wondering
I ask myself if everything I know is worth knowing
As my mind wonders i sit here thinking
Maybe life is to short to go on the way i have
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if i had the choice today would be my last day
my last day to take in the world
nothing else in this world would make it any better
so many things that go wrong i cant help but make them all want to dissapear
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This pain runs deep in my veins
Its cutting me like a razor blade
It mangles and rips me apart from the inside out
To know that something that was once good
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You will never know how much I am going to miss you
You have been here for me through every tough time
I’ve gone through
Even though we have our fights nothing will keep me
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Why can’t I make up my mind
It shouldn’t be this hard
I know what I am looking for
Some have that list of qualities
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You are the reason I became dependant on all of these things
The weed, pills, alcohol, and cutting
You tried to control my life
You didn’t like me for who I was or what I did
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Sometimes I want to be there
That place that no one else has gone
The place in the dark
My abbyss
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My heart will never be the same as before
She took it from me and tore it apart as if it was nothing
Could I ever forgive her or will i just keep going back to get hurt again
That summer was twisted and turned in to many directions to know
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As my fist slams against that mirror all I see is the dropp of blood hitting the floor
I hear the glass hiting the ground
My body doesnt feel the pain at all
I am in a trance and all there is to do is snap back into reality
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Sitting alone not knowing what to do next
The whole world is turning so fast I cant seem to get a grasp
Looking at the faces I once knew so well
They all seem to dissapear
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Looking into the starless night
I wonder if she sees the same
Does she think about me as i do about her
Or has everything that used to be changed
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Why does everything have to be so complicated
It can never just be an easy choice
All four of them are good guys
There are only two problems
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You said you liked me
and I told you I liked you
Now you say you like her
You said once I broke up with
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