desiree hayden Poems

I'll drink it fast I'll drink it slow.
Forget these dreams forget these schemes,
Forget my dreams of being a star forget all of these stupid scars.
All my worries are gone, my bruises start to heal,
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Too many ways to let myself die.
Too many days that slowly pass by.
Too many ways to let myself go,
Too many days of just saying no.
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My razor is sharp,
My razor is pointy.
My razor could kill me in two seconds or twenty.
It could kill me fast it could kill me slow,
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Here I sit at the top of the stairs,
I'm all alone except for me and my teddy bear.
My heart is pounding and pounding,
I feel like it's going to tear.
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If only you knew what I go through,
If you only knew deep down inside why they can never be so kind.
If only you knew what it feels like deep down inside,
It hurts so much to be kicked when your down.
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Because you don't care, you'll just sit and stare.
As my tears fly out you never put.
I'll cry and cry for hours and hours,
But you sit and stare yur heart never towers.
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You look at me with distace,
You look at me with disgrace.
You look at me with those awful eyes,
It feels like you've punched my insides.
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When you hug me at night you tell me these lies,
Like you really do love me and you actually do care.
I feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster,
Going up, down and all around.
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'I dont like it here anymore, ' I say, but I just can't seem to get
away.
I dont like it here in this dark trench.
It makes everything feel so tense.
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