(for my brother Larry)
I live inside an empty place, inside of me, a storm
Imagining when last I touched your face, so calm, and warm
I held your hand but did you know? , I think about this some
This morning as I sit beneath, the bright, but darkened dawn
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Sad soul take comfort, nor forget,
Scatter the clouds that hide,
The years that were spent in pain, and regret,
With no one in whom to confide...
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Your heart, like stainless steel,
Cuts into me like a knife,
To leave my bleeding heart...unattended, dying...
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I can't seem to sleep these days...
Relaxation gone...
Stripped of all I've known...
Wasted years, no reason for heartless scenes they've shown...
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Everyday, I feel I lose a little more of me...
The nights are all alone, and it's so hard for me to see...
I don't know yet what is to come, or what someday will be...
Please give me the strength my Lord, to keep in sight of Thee...
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My mind is leading me, into a place I've never been,
My heart is broken, shattered, scattered to the wind,
I dream sometimes, of loneliness, and a dreadful, final kiss,
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If I said Loved you, would you walk away from me?
Even if you felt you loved me to...
If you didn't want to hear it, would it echo through your day?
From the lonely heart, that breaks for you...
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These old trees know my name....
A thousand times they have seen my passing..
A soft hello from me old friend...
Another tearful goodbye...
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How can I go on, with my heart breaking
Why, must I continue to be lost
What did I accomplish, to win this aching
Cold upon my love, there lies a frost
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A witch... is she, who has cast a spell over all that I am,
Over all I will be, or was, and faces the uncertain future,
The uncertainty that infects us all...
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