As your hands touch me
As your lips graze my neck
I am falling
My thoughts are elsewhere
...
I see my world in comic strips, in still frames
While in the car together I see us next to each other
and then I can literally see the car grow
Our seats are now miles apart
...
As you sit here crying for me
It’s on deaf ears
I feel it’s not real
You’re not real
...
I went from being the only one
To one of many
Tried to hold on to anything
The littlest of details
...
We lay side by side,
As I lay completely empty,
I feel so un-alive,
But then a slight breath from your mouth runs down my shoulder
...
Stuck
As your hands touch me
As your lips graze my neck
I am falling
My thoughts are elsewhere
My body is elsewhere
Yet you keep going
Knowing I am not here
You keep going through the motions
Knowing it will destroy me
Knowing what I’m thinking
Knowing the questions I am afraid to ask
Knowing the answers I need to hear yet will destroy me
Because left unasked I am stuck
The music of my life is imperfect
And it refuses to go on
Stuck forever on that one sad love song
That one song that brings me to the floor in pain
I’m screaming in the silence for you
Screaming for you to find me
But I lay here naked on the floor
In so much pain I can’t bare to stand
Can’t bare to breathe
Can’t bare to live with or without you