i will hold the plain white pillow
over my face until i lose all breath
i will fight, and kick, and scream
it will be a painful death
...
the sun doesnt seem so bright
and the skies not all that blue
nothing can bring a smile to my face
...not sense i lost you
...
this thing pulling us apart
this thing that doesnt even really matter
destoying a friendship that was so strong
im just waiting for things to get better
...
the silent denial
of the scars on my wrist
the made-up excuses
of the bruises from your fist
...
memories and dreams
an image comes to my head
afraid to open my eyes
because all those things are dead
...
i cant control these feelings
they're taking over me
im hurting inside
but its nothing you can see
...
i see the pain underneath your smile
your trying to hold back
it almost brings tears to my eyes
as i sit and try to fake a laugh
...
Following blindly
for i thought you really cared
i was only gone for a second
and i looked back but you werent there
...
take a couple pills
to kill what i dont want to feel
keep myself from crying
the only way i can heal
...