Lisa AT Poems

The pain cuts deep, deeper than a knife
My mind has been muddled for so long I don't know what's real
I lost my way and I'm forced to fake a smile through the strife
I'm ashamed of my life because its empty
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I miss you
Every single day
You consume my every waking thought and my dreams
What can I say?
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2 years have almost gone by filled with sorrow and pain
Never accepting the fact I won't see you again
I no longer have you in this human life
But I hope you're still there
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As I walk through the dancing leaves on the cold deserted street
I feel the crunches under my feet
In a flash my childhood springs to mind
I look ahead, to the side and behind
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My world was shattered, torn apart
All thats left is a broken heart
Nobody seems to understand my pain
This isn't living, it's a constant strain
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Saying goodbye to the past
The ghosts that haunt me night and day
It's taken a decade to get here
But I'm finally ready to blow the cobwebs away
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I sit here and wonder
Is it ever to be?
Will I get to display
The mother in me?
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At first the thoughts are normal
Thinking about tomorrow
But soon they escalate to fear
Until I am drowning in my sorrow
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Poked and prodded, endless tests
I beg... Please no more, let me rest
Disease has ravished my body, giving me only one choice
I see the consultants mouth moving, but can no longer hear his voice
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I had never thought about how I might die
I was too busy living my life
But when you face death in the eye
You realise that you are just a daughter, sister or wife
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