La Gail

I want to be held by you every night
I want to be able to say I love you everyday
To see you every day
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That feeling of fear like none other
knowing your body is not on the same page
that pain never experienced before
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Time doesn't take the pain

Record plays
so fresh, so clear
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The reality of the sun
so warm, bright, comforting
The relm of my mind
so negative, dark, cold
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These thoughts that play on repeat
Punish me because I deserve it
It's never enough
Pain is never to real
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I understand all to well
The things I do
To avoid the thoughts
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This world of many
Many of horrors

These simple things in life I love
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This state of being
Is but a moment in life

A moment I do not want to feel
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My thoughts I keep hidden
My terrors I push away
I hide my face with this
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The reality of crims
My sleep is the greatest waste of time

Time I want to waste
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I know I can accomplish anything i desire in this world
because
I saw you accomplish everything you wanted and more
I know
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I love this world I made to keep
The sane in me from escape

I need to see, what is not clear
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wake up and shower or not
brush my teeth
fix my hair
clothes, keys, leave
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I like to play some games with me
To test just how far I can go
It's fun to test my limits here
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The stinging pain of water falls

While rocks are deep below
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Sometimes the best things
that come along in life
you have to let go of
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huts with and without you baby
i don’t understand how i can love you
and you can love me
but we can not be
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The way they move
I see them
I hear them
I feel them
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