Dear Lord,
You know what's best in everyone's heart; including my Grandma Helen. As you know she was diagnosed with lung cancer and has only a short time to live. I must ask you why. Why is her life being cut so short?
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I want to feel the love
I dont have a family that loves me
I dont have the mother love
I dont have the father love
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I promise you
That I will love you
Love you until the end of time
I do not know why
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I love the fact
You act like your still my mom
You tell me to grow up
Yet look at yourself
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I use to think that we would be together forever
But you have proven that would never happen
It does hurt to know that we are not together
But I know in the end it is probably for the best
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No matter how much we wanted this to work
We both know it couldnt
We are so much different
I am the sun
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Will I ever be okay?
Today I looked in the mirror
All I saw was the mask
That everybody else sees
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The pain from my nightmare was unbearable
I woke up today in much worse pain
Knowing you don't want me
Knowing that all my efforts
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