I look in the mirror and am ogled by a complete stranger;
I wonder when I lost my sense of self, my sense of direction,
And why I did not notice the signs of my own destruction,
Turn tail and run away, far away from that inherent danger.
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It is but for the Grace of God I pen this-
Not so very long ago, I was asked to begin this
Life anew-as though one of His Children, reborn;
Now, I am Blessed with proof, which doth adorn
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Ah, Summer; the last season of my discontent,
The last days of my forced internment-
May they be cloudless and temperate,
To mirror the desires of my heart, as I figure it
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Good morning Princess, Daddy misses you dearly!
I hope to see you again soon to enjoy your laughter and smile!
I call to you, in prayer, each and every night...do you hear me?
Hopefully you have been well, it has been quite a while!
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As I gaze adoringly into your eyes, my heart, melodious with jubilation:
I hold your hand, witness your grace-and it leaps with exaltation!
Forever in your debt for the gift you did bequeath,
Ne'er wane in your belief of such, I do beseech!
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Stanza I-Vexation
Where were you Daddy, when I turned one,
I want for your approval, yet there is none?
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Life's only real mystery-the only one I can not impart,
Is the remembrance of thee in mine own fragile heart!
Persistence not lacking though, far it is from such,
Cursed be my heart, as I long for thee so very much!
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My beloved friend? Yes, well until I need you the most-
Now you are naught more than a ghost,
Haunting my subconscious mind, with all we used to be;
We are now estranged, because you refuse to see,
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We may not bide with this glory should we be too afeared;
What for art thou then fawn at what thou always revered?
I have searched my entire life for the one that allows my heart to sing,
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If wishes and dreams were money, I would be a millionaire;
If they were all I needed, I would already be there,
Privy to your resplendent, amazing grace!
Nothing may serve to recompense or replace
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