Slow rush of my blood.
In my veins,
Through my wound,
Onto my skin.
...
Ten years dead
But the rain still hurts.
Ten years dead
...
There's nothing as sweet as the smell of your sweat
So elusive as the dance that we haven't done yet
Your hand on my waist
My head on your chest
...
I have seen the cosmos grow wildly along my path;
I have heard their words;
I have heeded their warnings.
...
One day I will be beautiful,
My scars will fall away with the last of my tears.
My eyes will twinkle,
My smile will be the sun.
...
It occurs to me, I haven't heard your voice in some years.
And now I'm afraid to hear it again.
Will it cause my heart to race or melt? Bring a smile to my face?
Or memories of your dreaded, leaded indifference to my mind?
...
It is as though I were a doll:
A shiny new Christmas toy.
Or a bright, red toy firetruck:
Cheap and badly made.
...
Breathe in. Breathe out.
It's not easy, I know.
But you have to keep going.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
...
In the last moments of my life
I lie awake, calm as a fetus to be
Stillborn.
I see, so clearly, my hand firmly
...
I hope it's coming soon.
I think it might already be here.
I thought it would be more pleasant and peaceful,
but it is better than using every day to disappear.
...