Nicollette Washington

let's start over
let's begin a new page
let's start blank
it's a new day and age
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You were there when i needed you.
When i thought the ocean was the pool and believed robots were true.
Now I'm all grown up.
I'm ready to see the world. I have breast now, I'm a grown up girl.
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Holding all of my heart
and i'm helpless to you
Walking by
and my strength decreases from you
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My world is crashing right in front of me
I can't do anything about it
The walls are collasping
I use duct tape to hold them togther
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Stop asking me if I’m ok
I’m not
Stop asking me if I’m feeling well
I don’t
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I can’t get over you and I tried
I went out with others
Talked about this with my brother
You keep popping up in my head
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the cost of life is expensive-
i can't pay the amount,
i thought i could afford but i never sat down to count.
debt is piling on top of me- bill after bill after bill after bill
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shut the door
turn off all the lights
leave me alone
isolation, seclusion, solitude- leave me be
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stop and look:

at the flowers and trees wilting away as fall gets ready for winter and winter gets ready spring
at the moon going from cresent to wane to half to full, oh how bright it shines
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so long ago it feels like ages
so long ago when i last sat on the grass for no reason and looked at the couds
so long ago when i didn't check my cellphone every 5 mins for a text message or missed call
so long ago when i cried because of happiness and not of pain and misery
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why must one give up their dreams because of money?
why must a child throw away their goals and aspirations because they can't afford to keep them?
why must one work hard only to end up with such bad results?
why must i give up my ambitions because its simply too expensive too hold on to?
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If I could go to the mountains scream to the top of my lungs
If I could go into the ocean and sing a song that hasn’t been sung

If I could do that than I can be who I wanna be
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