A Beggar Poem by Vinaya Joseph

Some days,
Life seems onerous...

I am swinging,
Between past & future,
Struggling with my present,
I want to let go,
But a faint hope,
Says hold on...

And I,
Dream on...

I become weak in my thoughts,
All my knowledge is in vain,
I pray for peace...

God, I have nothing against you,
Don't test me so much that I break down,
I don't even know if
You exist or not?

When I seek love,
And forget morality
For a few moments,
When the pleasure is gone,
It always leaves me behind
With lot of painful memories,

I have no friends,
No enemies...
No scores to settle,
Nothing,
Nothing at all...

All I need is peace,
No more tears God,
Have mercy,
Get me out of this rut,
Jesus you never fail,
Remember the words that you wrote on my hand,
So don't leave your child now,
In the middle of the street,
Like a beggar...

I want you to be there,
Besides me...

I beg for solace,
Within my self,
To kill that longing in my chest,
That bloody turbulence in my mind

I realize,
Overwhelmed by emotions
All I beg for is calm,
Within my self...