I walked across the sand of the beach as the sun began to set
I watched in its firefly glaze and sweeping blaze
as it began to fall marveling at it in all it's glory
hanging there like the Jupiter's mass
engulfed in Saturn's swirling rings
my mind ponders such things
the beauty of it all
the days I do fondly and tenderly recall
and in the wake of the streaming sky I felt so very small
but my desire was larger than the span of the heavens above
deeper than any fathom of the ocean blue
and higher than any majestic mountain peak
for what I speak of is an unending quest
for a love that was lost long ago before the nights ran cold
scripted on the pages torn from a fairytale of old
where the statues of the gods of creation stand and take hold
as the fingers of angles carved our features into the mold
I am lost without you
drifting aimlessly and alone like the broken bark
floating on the reef where lay the wreckage of broken hearts
I dream about you
always finding my comfort in the soothing ripples in my sleep
yet when I awake you are not there and so I still weep
and so I returned here
hoping just for some strange reason I would find a clue
some sort of tattered remnant
fluttering through the air on the winds of recollection
something, anything, that reminds me of you
so I walked in the same footprints of the trail that we left
set in the same sand where I held your hand
when our hearts found each other and our souls mated and met
and then suddenly for a moment I was there as if you were there
wanting so desperately to look to my side
and see you walking beside me as you did that day
I am incomplete now
just an elaborate presentation of a puzzle with a missing piece
for without you I know not how my heart is able to beat
I remember those quiet moments when I laid at your feet
massaging away the days regrets as you caressed my frame
whispering thankfully your name so very sweetly in our intent
as the ache and tension that encompassed my body and mind
was untangled like the knotted ropes that plagued my spine
as we watched the sun slip away in it's decent
yet now I walk alone and the sun has skirted away
hidden until the next birthing day now giving way
to the darkness that is the night as I still stroll
with a heavy heart under the twinkles of the stars
as they poke their minute pinholes in the curtain of night
I inhale the salt from the ocean as the waves echo
like a shell put to ear as my tongue tenderly licks my cheek
holding the fleeting taste of a freshly falling tear
if only I could hold you near
and find you in the mirrored reflection of my own quaking soul
I will search for you until the sands of time run dry
until the clouds fade and fall from the sky
for I know no other was meant for me and could ever be
my partner on the roads of interpretation
where only dreamers tend to tread
as I leave my dripping ink on the many empty pages
hoping somehow, some way, your loving eyes will find me
and read the words I said and clear these images from my head
I cannot give up
for there is only one mate made for one breathing soul
and I know it was you the moment I held you
and first spoke your name aloud
the second our lips touched and the instant our mouths met wet
before the physical inception we embraced in our minds
two of a kind conceived and ripped from the same liberty page
carved on the same wall where the lovers of destiny
hang their hats and then I crumble into the layers of loves waves
my head bowed now in a single solemn prayer
as the emergence of life's light finds me sitting quietly there
as the sun makes it's return over the beckoning horizon
that I will find you once again
and reclaim the connection that still surges through my pen
I cast my love upon the currents of the shadows of the wind
in the hope that it's breeze will caress your velvet skin
and just as I turn to go as the air becomes colder
as if the sea knew and it grew from the volume of my tears
and the shadow of a lone dove hovered still against the swollen moon
and the ship in me lay still
bobbing on those resettles waters murmuring it's silent tune
it is then I see a tiny glimmer on the shore and make my way near
and for an instant I smile
like the child on Christmas morning when the new day is dawning
hoping against all hopes that this is a gift for me alone
solidifying my beliefs in the unicorns and leprechauns,
the tiny fairies and fawns, that dance in the rainbows core
as I reach down and pick up a bottle with a note in it
and as I open it I feel your scent greet my nose
and I know there is a chance that I may breathe once more
as I stand there in the sand of the beach with my heart open
and my eyes tightly closed
where does the path of destiny lead before me
only the lords of love can know
but I am the dreamer, the thinker, and the wanderer
of the endless plains of driven hope
the embodiment of every tender touch that was ever dared
and I know that above all that exists in the web of wonder
that dreams are just reality waiting to be shared
for the greatest query of all
remains in the folds of the questions never asked
the scent of the memories of the past
but perhaps now there are is an answer that is seen now before me
captured in the shimmering crystal of a new found story
written on the seeping ink of the single page
of a letter left in glass
Thoughts of a Single Man 2012 tm
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem