A Void In My Heart Poem by Daya Nandan

There is this emptiness that grows within me,
A loneliness within that no one can see,
It is eating me slowly this wicked feeling within,
As coldness runs through my soul and can be felt from the skin,

So, what more horror awaits my broken and damaged heart?
Another glimpse at you, the woman who tore me apart?
A void is now within me, a void that is eating me whole,
Day by day this horrid feeling gets closer to swallowing my tender soul,

So, tell me young dame, why would you just walk away?
Are your feelings for me so worthless that you would let it decay?
What happened to those feelings you used to tell me so much about?
Was that cherished love we once had so full of doubt?

Are those old emotions we used to treasure simply lost in time?
Was our tale of love to you nothing more than a crime?
Do you not see the damage you caused through the thick smoke?
Or are my feelings to you nothing more than a practical joke?

So tell me old lover of mine just what am i to you?
A stranger? a friend? Perhaps a mistake you wish to undo?
Speak to me and tell me! Why do your lips still remain silent?
Why do you not answer even after my heart has taken beatings so violent?

You tainted my soul with great darkness and despair,
Destroyed me whole with little life or hope to spare,
And now a fake smile outside i carry everyday on my face,
Only to return back here to the darkest place,

It courses through my veins this traumatizing pain so great,
Like a malignant cancer it grows, with no sign of it to abate,
How much more piercing pain does my shattered heart have to take?
How much more can this weakened heart ache?

I fear that i may give up hope on the land of the living,
This void in my heart never heals from the pain you are giving,
Everyday in my mind as a memory of us goes by,
This void continues to grow within me as i ask god why,

Death no longer scares me, i am no longer afraid,
This void in my heart cuts my insides silently like a well sharpened blade,
Hence, it slowly engulfs me this disease of all evils,
And laughs the demons above, those waiting devils,