Again? Poem by jessie warren

Here I go once again
rethinking everything I thought I knew.
Realizing I know, I know nothing but sin.
How can you not care
but still care at the same time?
How can I be here
but not be here at the same time?
How can I live
but not be alive at the same time?
If you can answer these questions
then you can answer how my life is.
If you can answer these questions
then you officially our my god.
But you can't, neither can I.
Here I am once again
writing to keep myself sane.
Sitting trying to deal with all the pain
and listening to music to deal with my sins.
Here I go once again...